Sunday, September 21, 2008

Chapter 2 of Rainbow Horse and the Trashy Tramp

Chapter 2
Pasadena, California
Ashley
It was the most horrible, wretched week of my life. First of all, I had never ridden in an airplane and I was scared to death. From the moment the plane left the runway of Hartsfield Airport, I missed my mommy. When we finally got three thousand miles across the country, the sadness only got worse. To top things off, it took forever for the Central band to finally figure out where we were going, what bus we were on, and finally to get up the hotel’s one elevator to our rooms. After hours and hours of waiting, we finally arrived in our room. The two beds seemed big enough for the four of us and so one of the girls and I took the bed to the left and the other girls took the one on the right, closest to the bathroom. For those smart enough to figure this out… it placed me right next to the air conditioning vent. Let me get one thing straight. I was five feet, one inch tall, weighed ninety five pounds, and was… still am… extremely cold natured. This is how it all began.
This girl… the one I was sharing a bed with… named Jillian, was about as close to opposite as you could get from me. She loved the cold and was not afraid to let me know. The first night we were in this hotel, she turned the air to fifty degrees (it was January) and I was FREEZING. Jillian also turned out to be a BED HOG. She stole ALL my covers and took up the ENTIRE bed. So little bitty me was hanging halfway off of the bed freezing in the middle of the night. This was night one… we were there for seven days. Poor little me. So I called my mommy in the middle of the night when I could not sleep and told her about that awful girl that would not let me in the bed.
Finally after days and days of putting up with this Jillian creature, it was time for the parade, the whole reason for this dang trip. We woke up at two in the morning, got us a little sack breakfast, and loaded up the bus. Then, we marched for six miles in January, in California, behind a freaking equestrian team (horses), and listen… horses poo. These horses pooed everywhere and we had to march in it for SIX MILES. The only two good things about this parade was one, we were on television, and two, we got to eat in and out burgers at the end of it while listening to these people protest religion or something.
The next day was the day I had been waiting for; the day I was finally getting to go home to sleep in my own bed with my own covers in the heat so that I could reestablish my body temperature. However, as I was packing, my mom called with some really sad news. My sister’s foster child was getting taken away by her aunt and we didn’t know if we would ever see her again. I was devastated. We had grown to love her so much and thought we would get to adopt her, but it seemed that this wasn’t how things were gonna work. Jillian’s mom was our room chaperone and she hugged me while I cried. After a long plane ride home, my mom met us at the airport and I left to say my final goodbye.



Jillian
The Tournament of Roses Parade in Pasadena, California
The Central Carroll Marching Pride was finally on its way to Pasadena. I was so excited because I was supposed to sit next to Jamie Jackson and Nickie Henry on the long plane ride to California. Something went wrong with our tickets, and all of our seats were messed up. I was then forced to sit next to someone that I didn’t really know… or like. Then the plane ride was cursed for all of eternity because I was sitting next to a stranger. When the pilot came over the intercom and told us that we were descending into the Los Angeles area, I was filled with joy. When we got to the hotel, it was so hot in that room that I immediately turned on the air conditioner.
The week we were in California was one of the best weeks of my life. We did lots of fun things such as going to Hollywood, Beverly Hills, Universal Studios, California Adventures and we marched in the most prestigious parade in the world, The Tournament of Roses Parade. Though the days in California were fun, being in the hotel was my favorite part because I got to watch T.V. and lay in the extra comfy hotel bed. I shared a bed with this tiny girl named Ashley, and when the lights were out, it seemed as though she disappeared. I have no clue where she slept or what covers she used because the bed felt so warm and so big.
Parade day came and the Central Carroll Marching Pride had to be on the bus and fully dressed with our instrument in hand by three am. As we stepped on the bus, my mom, the head chaperone handed us Breakfast in a Bag. As I opened this bag, I came to find that it had string cheese in it. And I was filled with joy. It also had a banana and a Fiber Bar so that we would not have to go to the bathroom on the SIX mile parade route. As we stepped up to the parade start, I could already hear and feel the excitement coming from the crowd. As we marched in the biggest, most televised and most prestigious parade in the world, we played some Southern Tunes entitled Jessica, Georgia on My Mind and of course our band favorite Louie Louie. After marching five miles or so, I passed a lady that was holding a sign that said “Don’t give up! You are almost through” I was so excited to be almost done with the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. It still to this day was the most exciting and most difficult day in my life! As we reached the end of the parade I remember one thing about it. And that was In and Out Burger. That was the last thing I remember about the Parade. The following day we returned to little ole Carrollton Georgia and I was thrilled to have a glass of sweet tea from Chick-fil-A and to see my daddy whom I missed very much.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

The Rainbow Horse and the Trashy Tramp

Rainbow Horse and the Trashy Tramp
Story of our Lives
Written and Illustrated by: Ashlika and Jillian
PROLOGUE
Once upon a time in a land not so far away in a magical place called C-Town, Georgia there lived two girls. As young children, the two lived separate lives, but little did they know that they would be whisked away into the world of friendship, an inseparable bond.
ASHLEY
I had bangs. Enough said. They were my trademark and my curse. From the time I had hair my mom would chase me down with a pair of old dull scissors to cut my bangs in a straight line below my eyebrows. Well… actually it wasn’t a straight line. More like a thick zigzag of hair that masked my entire forehead for the first eighteen years of my life. My bangs affected my life both emotionally and socially. I had no friends, and the people I thought were friends really made fun of my bangs both behind my back and to my face. I did not know the true meaning of friendship. As I grew older I yearned to be freed from my bangs but each time I tried to rid myself of this characteristic that was paining my life, my mother would come at me with those awful scissors. When I was fourteen years old, my bangs and I joined the marching band at Central High School. The band had been selected to go to the Rose Parade in Pasadena, California that year and we were all extremely eager for the plane to take off. However… I had a little hindrance. My bangs and I got mono and I was unable to select my own group of friends to room with. Therefore, my room was selected for me and this is how I met my best friend.
JILLIAN
Hello. My name is Jillian and I have a problem. (Hi Jillian)I am somewhat OCD. For those of you who don’t know, that means Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. And that means that I like things to be in a certain order and I like things to be done my way and only my way. The only thing not OCD about my life is my bedroom. It is a pigsty. It always has been. Growing up, my mom worked at a hospital in Atlanta. Therefore, my daddy dressed me and sent me to nursery school everyday. For those of you that know anything about men, they can’t dress little girls. I was forced to go to school in outfits that didn’t always match and my hair never looked cute or pretty because my daddy always fixed it. And I had an older brother that was always mean to me and we always fought. He made me a tougher person, but I love him. I had one best friend in the 4th and 5th grade. Her name was Cathy, but she moved to Texas before the 6th grade and I haven’t heard from her since. Throughout middle school, I played in the band. And that’s all she wrote. When it came time for high school, I joined the Central Carroll Marching Pride. As a band, we were selected to march in one of the most prestigious parades in the world, The Tournament of Roses Parade in Pasadena, California. Since I had no friends, I was randomly selected to be in a room with these three other girls that I hardly knew. And that is how I met my best friend.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

A Life that I've Left Behind...

So i was once in Love... with this guy that I thought was great and really nice and just an all around good person... But people change. And their feelings change. And Now I have changed for the better.

I was treated in a way that no girl, or person for that matter, should be treated. I was ignored and lied to. I was left alone in a relationship. I tried my hardest to save my relationship with this person that I so called "Loved." I waited an entire summer for him to come around and that never happened.

We had such a good year and 3 months together... We were technically together for 1yr and 5months and like 15 days. The last two and a half months of that were hell on earth for me. And he had no idea. He had no idea that going away to a different state and not calling me would hurt my feelings. Maybe he did and those were his intentions to just not speak to me again... I don't know. All I know is that he just all of a sudden quit caring and quit me.

All of the good times we had together and all of the times we shared. We did everything together. We went out to eat, we went to the movies, we laughed until we cried. We were a couple that people didn't understand. We never fought... and there was nothing that I ever wanted to fight about. People would say don't the two of you ever fight and the response was no... never. So I have no idea where those times went. I have No idea where the guy I loved went.

I know that I wasted two and a half months of my summer crying over him. I spent days sitting at my house because i was too sad, too depressed to leave. I don't know what brought me to that point in my life but its something I'll never do again. That is one thing I am thankful for from him... I'll never cry again for a guy, I'll never waste my summer, I'll do my own thing. And if what I am doing fits with you then thats awesome!!

I knew before that I had good friends and family members... Now I know that they are more than good! They are awesome!! And they always knew how to make me smile when I thought I couldn't do it anymore. They always found the right words to make me feel better... I don't have that ability... I can make people laugh... but I cant give advice... Its just not my thing. I'm thankful to these people. And I haven't named anyone in this yet but I'm going to now...

To my mom... who came and held me when I cried and told me that everything would be ok. and taught me that he was stupid and immature and didn't know what he was losing. She opened my eyes to things I had never seen and always tried to show me both sides of the situation. Thats what I needed. I needed to see both sides... She listened to me while she was at work at 3 in the morning and I was still awake because I couldn't sleep. Who told me that I deserved better and that I was so smart and had so much potential and that he was nothing but a setback. And even when i yelled at her because I was angry at the world she still stood right by my side. I love her soo much and she is awesome.

To my dad... who seemes clueless... but he wasn't. I have no idea what he said to this day... But I'm sure he told me to quit Squalling. lol. Because he would say something like that... and he told me that i was so smart and that I could do anything I ever wanted... which is true. And even when he made me nasty hamburger helper on my most saddest days... he was still there for me. And he got my mind on other things. Like giving him a hair cut. Even though I have no idea what his exact words were... its just his presence that made me feel better. Maybe its cause I'm a daddy's girl, I don't know... and he watched the movies that I wanted to watch one night and thats not him at all... haha. I just know that he had overcome it all in his life and he never once told me what I should or shouldn't do. He let me learn for myself and in the end I will be a better person having done what I thought was best and learning from my mistakes...

To Mrs. Patty... who knew something was wrong with me before I did. How did she know that? She knew something was up before I even told her. She could tell by the look on my face at lunch one day. She knew I wasn't happy. Then she tried to call me and trick me into thinking that she hadn't already talked to my mom by just randomly inviting me over one night. haha. I'm too smart for you guys!! You cant trick me!! I know when something was up. ha. But she floated in a freezing cold swimming pool with me for 3 hours and just listened to me talk and talk and talk. She always had the best advice to give. She always knew what to say and when to say it. She was an outside perspective of it all and somehow knew what the ending to my story would be. She knew I had to let go and move on... She knew what Tuck was thinking and doing way before I did... she always guessed it right and I don't know how she did it. It amazes me to this day that the things she assumed were going on and questioned me about all turned out to be right... Maybe she could read him like a book. But I dont Know... I just know she is amazing and always has been!! She is more of a role model for me than she will ever know!!

Mr. Kenneth... who never really said anything... I could just tell by the look on his face of what was going through his mind. I could tell that he wanted to go kill somone but never said he did. haha He said one thing to me like last week... and that was to have respect for myself... and that was all that was said and somehow it made perfect sense... That was the only line I needed...

To Jamie... who had been there before... who shared her stories that fit right into mine... that made perfect sense even thought they were at a different time and a different place wiht different people. It helped so much... she was the only person that really understood exactly how I was feeling because it had happened to her. So I thought about how good of a person she was and I thought about how happy she seemed now that she was through with that part of her life... and thats what helped me out a whole whole lot.... She is such a good friend to me and always had been...

To Cody Bradley... who introduced me to the songs the 7 things I hate about you... It just so happened to be the story of my life. He always listened to me. He just could make me happy by just being there. and who sent me the 7 things he loved about me... which is still saved in my phone from June 16th. Because its my favorite text message ever!!! he was just a lot of help to me this summer and I dont think he even knows it!! I <3 you!

Finally to Ashley or Ashlika... who is my best friend... Who was just always there. who was always there when I was lonely and always there when i just needed someone to talk too. She filled the void... She was there to tell me that we were going to the grillage and that we were not sitting around my house doing nothing... who always said the right things at the right time to make me laugh. Who just... goodness I cant even describe it... she just was there when he wasn't. thats all there is to say... She kept me laughing and kept me busy... and she and mr. Kenneth always had some joke about toe nails. lol. and it was just soo funny... And she has matches in her back seat... and she always listened to me when I vented... idk she is just my bff.

Well now back to the story...

This is the good part... I am a better person now. I am happy again. I smile and laugh all the time again. I am back being the old Jillian. Who people love!! I am through with immature high school people... The times were fun. You broke my Heart and there is nothing I can do about it but move on... and I would have written this blog like a week ago but this is the first oppurtunity that I have had...

So here I am... the new me. I am better off. I deserve to have a better person. I deserve to be treated like a person and not a dog.

The person for me is out there and I am very excited about meeting that person... Meanwhile... this was just an experience that I needed in my life. So I hope you enjoyed my blog... and thanks for helping me out for those of you that did!!
Me and my bestest Friend in the entire world!!! I <3 her!!
Again... we do it white girl style... this is us throwing up the deuces... or just a peace sign...
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Thursday, July 31, 2008

More pictures on the road


We got caught in traffic and had to look at the back of this tyson chicken truck for an hour... Lets just say that we had not had lunch yet and we were getting hungry.
Boredom in the car...
The 1st tunnel in Virginia!!
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On the way to Pennsylvania

I was really excited about this huge pack of M&M 's. I ate them all and my mom got mad. haha
The Mountains of West Virginia. I only took like one thousand pictures of them while in the car.

Aww wee... this poor raccoon... I felt so bad that i thought it should be documented with a picture.
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Family Reunion... Summer 2008


Me and my mom went to Pennsylvania. These are pictures and stories from along the way.


We left Carrollton at 6am. This picture was taken in Rome, Georgia as the sun was just starting to come up.
We sure do love Georgia Sun Rises
Riding in the car... Boy was it a long ride.
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Sunday, July 20, 2008

I love this boy!!! and we love Uno!!! and the lake!!! The Fourth of July is always fun!!
Me and Logan love the pool!!!
and I love the pool a little top much!! I was really thirsty!!
I love my Best Friends!!!
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Even more pictures!!

We Love Splash Resorts!!! and sitting by the pool since we couldn't get in the ocean because of sharks!!
Just a few friends we made along the way!!
Jill Pickle the Wedowee shot!!
Me and Logan!!!
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More Summer pictures!!

Me and Ashley at the Beach!!!
I love pickles!!! and this one was huge was Margaritaville in Panama City Beach Florida
I love to swim!!! Finding shells is my favorite thing to do!!
No one told me we were making pretty faces... I just assumed that we were getting our heads chopped off and we should be upset about it
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Summer Fun!!! Pictures From the Last two months

Midnight Viewing of The Dark Knight!!! It was amazing!! Everyone should see it!! The Best Yet!!!

"Anyone want to see a magic trick? I'm going to put this pencil through this table"
"I'm going to make you smile"
I love the playground!!!

Getting dressed up to go to Graduation!!
Have I mentioned how I feel about dolphins!!!
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I love my Best Friends!! These are a few pictures from this past weekend!! We had such an amazing time!!
Logan sure does love to dance!!
This is Ashley with her new friend!!
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The Horror of the Rocky Horror picture show

So... Me and Ashley went to Atlanta to stay with Logan in his new apartment!! We were really excited about it and everything!! We got there and we went to the pool. That was fun and logan's apartment has a really nice pool... There was this one girl that was pure trash. She was probably 30 years old... and she had on one of those bathing suits where your entire butt us showing... but it wasn't a thong bathing suit. But it was disgusting... and of course i had to be obnoxious about it. haha. Me and Logan were the only ones that got in the pool because ashlika had her spray on tan and couldn't get wet for like 5 hours or so... kind of like when you get botox and you cant smile. haha

So after the swimming experience we went to find something to eat. Logan and I wanted pizza but ashley was like i dont like pizza. and she kept saying it... and every restuarant we passed, me and logan would be like i wish we could eat pizza and ashley was like I freaking hate pizza!!! and ate at five guys, burgers and fries. it was amazing!!! the best cheeseburger i've eva had!!! lol. so we came back to the apartment and we were looking for something else to do...

So we were like omg lets go see mamma mia in atlantur. and as we were looking for the movie times we ran across the Rocky Horror Picture Show that plays at the palace theater every friday night at 12... so were were like lets go... i had no idea what it was and Ashley sure didnt. lol. we hadn't even seen the movie before. So Logan was like trust me you will love it!! and i was like ok i trust you. Logan called his sister Holly and asked if we would have fun at the show. and she was like yes!! me and my friends go all of the time!! So logan was like what do they do there? and Holly was like well people dress up like transvestites and other things and you will live it. so I called the theater and was like um I am wondering about the safety of your show this evening... And the guy was like what do you mean? and i was like am i going to get cut in my polo when i get there? and he was like i'm not sure what you mean so i was like never mind. we were like ok we will give it a try so we had like 3 hours to kill until then so we decided to cut on the tv and watch something...

So logan just moved in and doesn't have cable yet... so the only station he picks up is abc... so we turn it on and 20 20 is coming on... and lo and behold this one random night that we cut on 20 20... its about sex. It was all about like sexuality in todays time. It talked about how you can get arrested for having sex in parks and sex in movies. and like all sorts of statistics about it and everything... it was a really good episode. So we all ended up falling asleep sitting on the couch... and it was like a power nap... it was very funny. Logan ended up waking up first and it was a good thing he did because it was time to leave for the show!!Ashley and i would and could have kept sleeping the entire night because the night before we had gotten like three hours of sleep after seeing The Dark Night on Friday morning at the Midnight show. it was amazing!!!!!! but anywho...

So before we left the apartment ashley was like we have to find an ATM. and the entire 10 minute ride to the theater she must have said that she needed an atm like 6000 times. so we found an atm. and when i pulled into the parking lot there was like 70 year old drunk woman walking in the middle of the road. and she was like "Watch where you are going" and then she started yelling profane words at us. and we just start laughing.

We made it to the theater and walked in to get our tickets. we walk over to stand in line to wait to go into the theater and there are these 3 girls and they barely have on any clothes... Like for real.... they are in their stripper outfits and the 3 of us are like looking at each other and then looking back at them... it was quite entertaining. so the next thing we know... there are these 2 gay guys walking around and they have on bright pink lipstick... and they are like are there any virgins in this group (talking about us.) and me and logan automatically point to Ashley. hahahahahaha. we did not want that junk on our face. so she gets this big V on her head and then one of them kissed her on the cheek. haha. it was so funny... So it ended up being that you get the V if she have never seen the show before. and the guy was like have you seen the show before... and i said yes i have... plenty of times. haha. It was a lie but they were not about to touch me. they could have aids or something... so now me and logan are loving the fact that ashley has this huge V on her forhead like the scarlett letter or something. hahahahahahaha.

As we are waiting in line, there is this lady that comes out and is telling about the show. She said "If you are easily offended... GET OUT!! If you are under the age of 18 go home and read a GD book!!!" So i was thinking in my head the entire time that this was not the place for us... we do not fit in....

So the show starts and they are doing a raffle for like a math saffari and an easy bake oven. and i really wanted that math safari. but so the movie starts... and to my suprise... people act out the movie on a stage in front of the movie screen... and all of the people in the audience are yelling out funny things while the movie is playing... So the movie lasted forever... and me and ashley were trying to listen to the movie because we had never seen it... but it was hard to concentrate on the movie when everyone in the theater is saying the same funny thing about the movie... So two hours later... it was finally over. we could finally leave and i was so excited.

We ended up going to the Majestic diner that was next door... and Logan's friend Simone had told us that she called it food food food. so we called it the same thing. The food was amazing but oober expensive for what you got. and they were so crowded... and there was this robo cop that stood at the door to give you a table... so here I am like half asleep and just having been through the worst experience of my life at the horror show...

So i was ready to go back to the apartment and sleep... so we did... and the next morning... we wake up and we are hungry and its like 10:20... and we all want breakfast... and logan is set on finding a martins. lol. and i'm thinking there are no martins in downtown atl... And i was like mcdonalds serves breakfast til 11. and logan and ashlika were like no they dont you stupid idiot... and i was like yes they are but whatever. so eventually we find a mcdonalds and we see if they have any breakfast left... and they were like we servebreakfast til 11.... and i was like i told you so!! lol...

So we were driving around and i was like its time for a Red Light Challenge like on the tv show Cash Cab... and we kept talking about cash cab... and Logan wa slike chut up about the cash cab!!! and it was soo funny.

Then we drive home... and that was the end of the weekend.

All in all we had an awesome time!!! The rocky horror picture show was an experience that everyone needs to have atleast once in their life...

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Work...

So here I am once again at the Department of ITS Classroom Support, Special Events and Graphic Services... The name gets longer everyday!!! I am bored out of my mind and its only 11 oclock... What to do what to do? oh well... I am very excited about this weekend because I am going, along with my BFF Ashlika!!!, to Atlanta to stay in my other BFF Logan's apartment. lol. I think we will have a good time... we always do when we are together... lol. but i guess you should stay tuned for pictures and or stories from the weekend. lol... As for now... i've got to answer the phone!! "Thankyou for calling ITS Classroom Support, Special Events, and Graphic Services. This is Jillian Speaking How may I help you today?" Tootles!! and God Bless you Today and everyday!!

From Old to New!!!

So this was one of those stupid 200 question surveys on myspace... I found it in my old blogs on myspace and I thought it would be interesting to see what has changed in my life... The blog is from July 10, 2006... That would have been just over 2 years ago and would be the summer before my senior year in high school... This should be interesting...
So this first answer to the questions will be the old answer and then the 2nd answer is the new one... and the new answers are going to be in purple...


200. My middle name is: Grace. Well that hasn't changed much... And i guess it never will... it will just be replaced with my last name hopefully to become my maiden name. lol

199. I was born on: June 23... Still hasn't changed. lol

198. I am: ready to take a nap. eh i could always use a nap... but right now I am Just me... I guess I could put a lot of things but that would take forever... and if you are reading this then you already know me...

197. My cell phone company is: verizon... its still verizon... and i still have the same number

196. My eye color is: hazel... hasn't changed... if anything they have gotten to where my eyes will change colors depending on the day... sometimes they are brown. sometimes they are green and sometimes they look like a sun flower... brown on the outside and green on the inside.

195. My shoe size is: 10... same

194. My ring size is: 7? i still dont know this and i wear a promise ring on my left hand... so i guess the new part would be that i wear rings now and i didnt then

193. My height is: 5' 7 maybe 8... I think i'm getting taller... or maybe the people around me are getting shorter

192. I am allergic to: most everthing outside ie: grass pollen trees... i'm still allergic to everything... but its not as bad now... i took allergy shots at the time and those helped relieve some of my troubles

191. I was born in: The Big CTwn... I think i'm old enough for it to say Carrollton now. lol

190. I live in: carrollton... still... Born and raised here... i may never leave

189. The last book I read: Power of One... omg i forgot until right now how much i loved the power of one and how much i hated summer reading. lol. I guess the last book i read was The Choice... By Nicholas Sparks. it was good

188. My bed is: purple... still purple... i have gained a new quilt that its lots of different colors though. lol... i need new sheets

186. I am glad I'm my sex because: I can be moody if I want to... i dont reallt get moody. i'm sure tucker would say other wise but. lol... i guess i'm glad i am a girl is because i can turn on my sad face to my daddy and get anything i need...

185. I have the most fun: When I am with my friends... still true... i would say at the lake or just hanging out to it. or when i am with my mom and dad

184. I am: Jillian... this will never change. lol... but i think there was already one of these questions on here. lol

183. My favorite restaurant is: Provino's in Douglasville... Goodness do i love Provinos!!! i guess my favorite restaurant would be either that or Kobe or El Jalapeno or The Grillage

182. I am afraid of: swimming under docks ... still afraid of that. lol. haven't done it to this day. lol... i guess now i would be afraid of loosing someone very important in my life all because of another person was being a rtard and messed up... some things that your parents do really affect who you turn out to be and i really dont want that to happen in this case...

181. The best position is: 3rd base... i'm not really sure what i meant by this then... i didnt have a boyfriend so i would have never been to that kind of 3rd base. lol. i guess i literally meant the 3rd base in baseball cause thats what i played as a kid... but my my favorite position would be much diferent... i'm not going to name a sexual position because i have no experience in that field... so i guess i'll keep it at 3rd. lol

179. My favorite Holiday is: christmas I freaking love Christmas!!!!!!

178. The perfect kiss is: unexpected... i guess this still is in play... but i guess any kiss would be perfect

177. The last cd I bought: Carrie Underwood I just bought the Keith Urban cd and the Enchanted Soundtrack cd

176. Last song that made me cry was: Jesus Take the Wheel... 7 things... by Miley Cyrus because it really explains what is going on in my life right now... it hits home!!

170. What did you do last night?: Came home from the lake to find that we had no electricity and when it came back on I put ice on my leg and watched Rumor Has it. I dont remember there not being any power... but i do remember why i had ice on my leg... i got caught in our bertha and it hurt my leg... its still there today... but last night i ate pizza, watched tv, bought supplies for this weekend at logan's apartment.

:::::I Do (YES)/Do Not (NO) Believe In:::::

142. Love at first sight? yea... the answer would be no now... you cant tell at 1st sight... i think its good to be friends with someone before you date them... thats the only way you know the real them

141. Luck? yea... yeah still the same... except i would never leave the h off of the end ever again in my life!!!

140. Fate? yea yes... we all have a set plan... none of us can control it. everything happens for a reason... there is a country song out that says "If you want to hear God laugh tell him you plans"

139. God? You got that right... i was still attending church when i wrote this the 1st time... i still believe in god i just feel that i have drifted away

138. Aliens? no? i say why would there be space if there was no one there to live on those huge empty planets

137. Heaven? oh yea... same

136. Hell? uhh huh haha. some days i feel as though i'm already there

135. Ghosts? ??? i have no idea... i guess it depends on the day

134. Horoscopes? nope still no... this just gives people something to read and something to do.

133. Soulmates? yes... yes... some people are meant to be together

:::::Which is Better?:::::

129. Hugs or Kisses? hugs... i like kisses... but i love to get hugs and feel like nothing can happen to you while you are in their arms

128. Drunk or High: neither... haha. i've never done drugs... never tried them and i dont plan on it... but i would much rather be drunk than high. haha. neither have ever happened though

127. Phone or Online: phone most def ... i know that i hate the phrase most def now. lol. and i still like the phone... its more personal

126. Red heads or Black hair: red all the way! not really sure why or how it matters? but still red

125. Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes I'm a brunette so sorry blondes!!

124. Hot or cold: cold i love to be cold.... being hot is sticky and nasty

123. Summer or winter: winter i love the winter!! i love wearing scarves and gloves and sweaters!! but i really love to swim so i like the summer too

121. Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate is strawberry an option?

120. Night or Day: Night & Day! i like both still....

119. Oranges or Apples: oranges still oranges...

118. Curly or Straight hair: straight i'm loving the curls at the moment

:::::Here's What I Think About:::::

116. Abortion: no good still no good but do not bring a child into this world that you do not want and that you cant support... words of wisdom from my dad "They have cheap ways to avoid that
!" lol.


115. Backstabbers: yuck havent met any

114. Parents: love em still love them... i'm not so sure about this em? though. lol

::::Last time I:::

103. Kissed someone: not too long ago... last tuesday when tucker left... not sure who i was kissing then? i had no boyfriend. lol... maybe it was the officer party at the lake??

102. Had sex: Never still true... not gonna happen til i'm married

101. Seen someone: other than family.. this morning I'm at work... so all of my co workers... and Ashlika and Katie

100. Cried in front of someone: July 3rd 2006 i would say in front of my mom when i was really upset a couple of weeks ago...

99. Grew: My Fingernails got longer ... my boobs since then? lol. i have no idea? hair?

::::MISC::::

90. Who is the ditziest person you know: Jessi Brown Heather Parker is now replacing Jessi

89. Who makes you laugh the most: Logan... logan still takes the cake. lol... there is never a dull moment. haha.

82. The thing I don't understand is: why peanuts never spoil or go bad... ya know i'm still wondering about those peanuts!!!! but the things i dont understand is when someone tells you that they love you numerous times and they have been dating you for 1 year and five months and you have a promise ring that they gave you... and then they go to texas and dont call you for a week!!! or two!!! i will never understand and i'll always hold it against this person... This person doesn't know why it upsets me but everyone else does... Everyone else can read it on my face... but not him... i have no idea what the deal is... Maybe he will figure it out sooner or later... and i'm praying to god that its sooner

80. The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever received: When the student teacher in mr. G's class told me that I had stupid questions i hate that dude from mr. Reynolds' class. he is a stupid person... and the most unsatisfactory answer to me is I dont know!! I hate that answer i think its stupid... if you dont know then find out damn it.

78. This summer I am: oh so busy... i am still busy... i've had the best summer of my life with my friends and the worst summer of my life with that someone who was once special(he still is special its just hard to think of it that way)

77. The thing I will really miss when I leave home is: my friends i am not going anywhere anytime soon

74. The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: Being a senior God senior year was a hell of a lot of fun!!!!!! now i'm looking forward to mending relationships and starting classes back in the fall

74. The thing that I'm not looking forward to is: Starting School i'm not looking forward to the fights that i know will come...

73. Tomorrow: Hang out with mom Got to work

72. Today: nothing working today too

71. Next Summer: college baby working and going to the lake... probably back to california to see my favorite auntie!! lol

70. Next Week: nothing... iPre Band Camp Going to Pennsylvania for a family reunion!!! i Cant wait!!!!!!!!!!!

69. People call me: Jill Jillibean Jillian Jilli JilliBop can be added to the list

62. The person who knows the most about me is: Ashley... This is probabaly the same... we could add my mom and probably Tucker but he sure is clueless to some things about me...

61. The person that can read me the best is: Ashley... still the same. lol. add my mom too and mrs. Patty. well probably anyone... i'm not the kind of person to ever get upset... and when i am most people can see it all over my face

60. The most difficult thing to do is: not being able to help someone... only being just friends with someone I still love to help people... i know who that just friends was. lol. but i'm not telling... and the most difficult thing to do is to say what needs to be said

59. I have gotten a speeding ticket: never... i have gotten a warning

56. My zodiac sign is: A crab I think my birthday hasn't changed and neither has this

55. The first person I thought I was in love with was: someone in my grade... I have no idea who that is but i guess i'm in love with Tucker now. lol

54. First time you had a crush: 8th grade same... and i'm pretty sure this person is gay and has a boyfriend now. haha

51. Right now I am talking to: who ever no one really

50. What is your dream job?: Big Wig Doctor Somewhere i would still like to be a doctor... but it is unfeisable at the moment...

49. First job?: none i'm a receptionist!!!

48. I have/will get a job at: ?? i have one now and i got it when i was 18

47. I have these pets: cat princess i still have this cat!!!

46. I hope: i will fall head over heels in love and marry that person and live a long healthy life doing what i love This is still my dream... I think it was in reach a couple months ago... but now it seems more distant than it ever has been before...

45. The worst sound in the world: A sqeak in a clarinet... god i was such a band nerd. haha. nut the worst sound in the world would have to be people that sing out of tune

44. The person that makes me cry the most is: havent really cried over anyone here lately I think anyone who has read each of the previous questions knows the answer to this but... the person that makes you cry the most is always the one that shouldn't be doing it at all...

39. My boy/girlfriend: single not single anymore and i hope it stays that way...

35. Florida or Hawaii: Hawaii I've never been to Hawaii but i'd love to go

33. favorite peice of clothing: Gatlinburg Shirt that Libby Ashley and I have good lord i do love that shirt!! lol... but my favorite shirt now is probably my Tropical Jon airbrush tshirt that me and Ashley have!!! haha I'm trash its always a air brush t

32. My favorite sport is: Football still the same!! Go Dawgs!!

31. Last time I cried: July 3rd last week... we all know why

30. My friends are: In Band good lord what was i thinking?!? I thnk my friends now would be Tucker Ashley Logan CJ Heather Katie

29. My computer is: A Gateway a Dell. lol. and its pink!!!

28. The school I go to is: CENTRAL! I go to Westga college... which is closer to my home than my high school was. haha

27. Last person i got mad at: Not really anybody, I really dont get mad Sorry tuck but thats all you :-)

26. My worst drinking experience was: In June They are all good!!! haha

22. The all-time best movie is: Forrest Gump Finding Nemo might take down Forrest Gump but i still love it!!!

21. The all-time best thing in the world is: friends and love I would still say that... and Margaritas. haha

19. The most annoying thing ever is: people not being able to march in step I mean honestly... I cant believe i would have ever put that down in an answer... lol The answer I dont know has got to take it

HOW YOU FEEL....

18. The most annoying person you know is: Someone whos name starts with a K and ends with a elly I only know one kelly and that was kelly callaway... and i have no idea why i thought she was annoying at the time... or even if its about her... but I love her to death now!!! lol

17. I lose all respect for people who: cheat and are backstabbers Liers and Sketchy people and Creepers are being added to the list!!!

16. The movies I have cried at are: the notebook i have no idea. but i love the notebook

14. TV shows you watch: Grey's anatomy desperate houseives house Desperate Housewives is annoying to me now!!! I still watch grey's and House... and Lost

12. I want to be: successful Still in place... i want to be a mom someday... but a wife first. lol

11. The worst pain I was ever in was: any pain is bad right? Heartbreak is the worst

10. My favorite phrase: You are Nasty or YAY FUN I still say yay fun... but i probably say "I'll work through it"

9. My room is: Messy omg its still a mess

8. My favorite celebrity is: Patrick Dempsey, he is gorgeous can we add josh lucas and matthew mcconohey?!?

5. My weakness is: my mouth Still the same... i say what ever the hell i want. haha

4. What turns me on is: telling me how they really feel about me in a good way I'm not sure what that meant at the time... but a turn on for me is just being there and loving me... i guess

3. Who broke your heart: no one no one i guess

2. One thing that makes you feel great is: knowing that someone is always there for me yeah this is still true... When someone tells me they love me and they actually mean it and do other things to show it... saying it is not enough

1. I filled out 200 questions because: bored out of my mind! I thought it would be funny to see how my answers have differed over the past 2 years... i think a lot of them are different because i have grown as a person...

I have no idea how to work this

haha. so i think i am being all technical. lol. but i typed up like a 2 paragraph thing and then hit post and now i have no idea where it went?!? lol. maybe it will show up with time? who knows. lol.